07.23.09

im really sick of my sister acting like a baby.. i just want to be back at school where i dont have to deal with this.. it keeps getting worse.. and so does my grandfather.. he walked from his house to our and my grandmother didnt even notice.. =\ and he is still hallucinating: he keeps seeing people across the river and thinks people are out to get him.. he needs a doctor who give a shit bc he just keeps getting medicine after medicine.. mom wants them to move in with us.. i volunteered to move down to the basement, but now im told i dont even get to move into the spare room.. i have to just sleep out in the open down there bc she wants her desk to stay in the one room.. [there is one room down there, the rest of it is just open].. pretty much i hate it here.. i go for my license test on saturday.. idk how ill do.. i parallel parked in mom's blazer about half the time, and im testing in ben's car, which is much smaller.. last chance to practice is tomorrow night =/ idk how im gonna do it.. i have to work tomorrow.. i go in for 3 hours.. i dont understand why they have such weird hours up there.. bc i work 945 to 1245.. its so weird.. it was nice not having to work the past two days tho.. i just hate being home..

07.01.09

i really wish i was back at school.. i just get so bored here.. i could at least chill in my room in peace if i wanted to at school.. here, i have no door and its always WWIII.. efffffff.. i get a three day weekend off from work for the 4th [somehow] and i dont even have anything to do.. nothing.. its like the worst little vacation ever.. ill be stuck at home getting bitched at.. what joy.. i have to work a 9 hr shift tomorrow.. i hate those.. and im in mens.. if it were anywhere else, i would be fine [except jewelry].. im sure im stuck working with wonderful people too.. i would love to be back in home.. i like it back there.. i think its the most chill place in the whole store.. plus i love looking at all the cute kids clothes lol.. at school for some reason people actually want to hang around me.. its weird.. that never happens to me.. not complaining or anything either.. i just usually keep to myself.. and people just leave me be.. except at home.. ugh.. anything i do is a problem.. i feel like thats all i ever write about but its my life.. thats what i have to deal with every single day.. i just need a break from it all.. this summer really sucks.. and ive been home for 2 months.. what have i done? worked and been a problem for everyone here at the house.. i cant afford my own place.. plus i dont get financial aide if i am not living at home.. thats the real kicker.. ugh! there is no lactaid milk for all the kids with special milk either! i want some applejacks! lol.. later this month im going to go out and see my grandparents again.. go out to their cabin and have some food and maybe play some more redneck golf.. i am sooooo boredddd! ugh.. i hate this place.. i wish i wasnt retarded and got my license like last year.. i cant test until the 25th.. i have to find a car too.. there is a white mustang on the strip that i like.. idk when i would be able to get in there tho with my schedule.. ive checked a few places online and have not found any cheap enough.. there are some on ebay but idk.. depends on how i would have to pay for it.. i guess ill try to see if i could find something to do..

06.29.09

sick of my parents throwing a fit about everything.. they just wont shut up.. they keep trying to run my life.. i just want to be away from it all.. everyone here just wont let me be without finding something wrong with me.. i just need a break.. some how college keeps looking more and more appealing..........

06.28.09

still living this boring life.. updating my computer then prolly just messing around on the internet for a little while.. nothing better to do.. working again tomorrow.. and tuesday.. im excited bc i somehow got a 3 day weekend for the 4th without asking.. im not complaining one bit tho =] im ready for tomorrow.. i get to see benjamin.. i have to make a walmart run and switch a few things at the bonton.. bc i checked all the tags of the shirts to make sure the size was right and i somehow missed one.. of course it doesnt fit...... o well.. then its off to walmart.. and then who knows what.. i doubt ill spend the night with ben then.. he has training, dont know if he plans on staying or if he is gonna clean out his gear locker.. omg safari takes FOREVER to d/l! maybe bc office is updating? idk.. o well.. posted my textbooks online.. hopefully someone buys them bc i would love to sell them asap.. hopefully someone buys them all and i have lots of money for textbooks this year.. i havent really searched yet but i should get the isbn numbers for my books this semester to ensure i get the right ones.. but im lazy.. yea, story of my life.. i wish i could just do my own thing at my own pace but that will never happen.. dont feel like writing any more at the moment.. ta ta!

06.17.09

well.. the whole blog thing lasted real long.. nothing has happened since then tho.. just relaxing.. then working for the next 8 or 9 days straight.. thats all i do anymore.. doing some laundry.. then prolly heading to bed.. was to baltimore last night.. ben had to turn in his application.. then we walked around the harbor.. and of course, i was in the book store forever.. like we dont have one here haha.. ok well its not that big.. and it doesnt have cool escalators which you can see the guts of.. whatev.. kinda hungry.. ill prolly get some food.. and then head to bed? 1 month til my half birthday btw! lol

05.05.09

i'm starting to think about doing this whole blog thing, just to maybe help myself relax a little? right now i am working, and as usual, i have nothing to do.. my classes are finally over, but i have finals yet.. oh joy.. i cant wait for this weekend.. ben is coming down and i get to see my dad.. packing up and shipping most of my stuff back home with him.. esp the tv and carpet.. just so i can piss of my "lovely" roomate.. i am so sick of this awful weather.. i dont remember it being this bad last year.. im cold.. and i wish ben was here to keep me warm.. i am excited for next year tho bc im rooming with one of my good friends.. and we have a corner room so it is bigger =] later i have to fill out clearance papers for ethical life next year.. i guess since im working with kids.. "i will hit a child" hehe.. love role models.. ugh, i just got really hungry all the sudden.. im so ready for the summer and the warm weather.. i just want to be home right now.. stupid finals for being at the very end =[ hopefully the weather changes for this weekend.. i want to get to the part for once bc i havent been down there yet.. i know sunday is supposed to be nice so maybe ill take a break from studying to go down and take a walk with ben.. idk.. we will see.. today is going so slow.. sometimes i really dont like working here just because i never have anything to do.. and it goes foreverrr.. i think im just gonna go read some fmls awhile..
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